It took a good minute... but I finally opened my eyes to see he's no use to me and no good for me. I got in a wreck on the 22nd of June and it opened my eyes. None of this material shyt meant nothing to me anymore... long as I knew I had my life, my friends and my family, that's all I need to make it. The night I got in the wreck I called this fool's stupid ass and he asked if I was okay and I said I was hurting and that my homegirl in the back had to get 18 staples in her head and that my homegirl driving got a sprained ankle... but he felt like kickin' it with his friends was more important. So, you know, whatever... I took that last emotion of feeling let down by him and ran away from my problem. I feel no regrets. Nothing. Kadarrius and Cayla is over. The thought of love for him... over. COMPLETELY. As much as I never thought I'd say this... I've never felt this good in life as I do right now. The games, lies, deception, tears, pain and insecurities are over... and I REFUSE to go back down that road again with the future and the one I'm with now.
Yeah... I'm talking to someone new ya'll... and ain't no shyt about it... I ain't even got to ask anybody... I know he's the one that I can see myself with for a good minute. No questions... this man is straight up real and ain't shyt messin' this up. And he ain't in Texas neither. He right here 2 seconds up the street, so it ain't none of that long distance shit. Of all the dudes I've met and kicked it with and sexed up over the past 5 months... I know he the one I'm ready to be in that relationship with. Ain't nothing fuckin' this one up. Believe on that.
Aight ya'll I updated... I got a new layout coming soon, but I'm enjoying my summer right now and spending time with my homegirl's before they go to college and gettin' in good with my new partna. *smiles* Holla @ me. BUTTA bytched @ 12:41 PM
