NEW LAYOUT!!!

How ya'll like the new layout? I like it, I think it's different and it's my first vectoring layout, so what ya'll think? I made it because I was starting to think about Kadarrius, again, and I just wanted a layout that reflected something personal of my own. So, Usher going through his shyt with his ex and me going through it with mine, it was mutual. lol.

Anyways, lots has happened since Spring Break. This is the 2nd week back in school from Spring Break and I'm just being a slacker. I sit in class, do nothing, or sleep, sometimes I pick up a pen and write some stuff, but it's rare. We've got one month left in school, and my grades are average, how? I don't know, because this 2nd semester, my ass hasn't done shyt! In my 2nd period, which is Biology, I sit there, either asleep, with my head down or on my cell in class and I came out with a high B. How? Shyt, I don't know.

Kadarrius called me that night I got to the beach and told me he didn't want anything to do with me, he didn't want us talking anymore and we were through for good. Fine. It was alright with me, I knew I'd be gettin' a call. Yep. How about a week and some days later, I get a call from him. Was I home to take it? Hell no. I'm single, I'm having fun. I'm not even sure what I want. I know what I need, but what I want, I have no clue. Me and Nick came to the agreement to just be friends and keep it that way, Weezy's on some games, and these new guys I've met... you can never be so sure about who's keeping shit real with you and who's not. All men run game, some just better than others. I don't know. I need a man who's going to be down for me, ride for me, treat me like I'm something, someone who's honest, open, real, in touch with his emotions, independent and doesn't think about games all the time. But do I ever meet the right men? Hell no. I'm always meeting the one's who want the prize, and once they get it they claim it? Ha, hell no. Fool, if you gettin' the prize you better know I'm pickin' you, not you pickin' me & once you do get it, you ain't my man, so you ain't claimin' shyt as yours. I'm so stressed out dealing with men, right now, it's no funny. I'm about to just keep to myself and that's it for a while, keep single, graduate High School, go to college and then see what's up. Who knows?

I've been real sleepy lately and just having horrible self esteem, maybe I'm PMSing, shyt, who knows? I'm a type person, who I guess is never happy with self-image. I am sometimes, but it's like switching clothes and hair styles... one day I'm fine as hell, the next, ugh, I'm ugly and fat. It's a female thing, too, but damn, mine's like a fuckin' light switch. I work out daily and I walk a mile daily, so, I don't know. I'm going back on a diet, tho, regardless. Maybe I just need to go get high or go to sleep. Yeah, that's where I'm about to go. I'm taking a visit to my bed. At 10:00? Yes, at 10:00. Good night.

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BUTTA bytched @ 9:37 PM